I am feeling miserable,sad etc..I have no idea why...Well,it has to be a combination of many many reasons rather than just one.

It has been too long since I heard some good news from back home. The most recent ones were one of my teachers from school passing away and my aunt being diagnosed with cancer.

I don't know how to deal with all this emotional atmosphere,well, I've never been good at that. I'm tired,as in exhausted,drained..mentally,emotionally..etc etc. I don't know what to do about it,so I'm just sitting here wondering about how unfair life is (It is an old cliche but I just can't get it out of my head), etc etc etc. I don't understand the logic behind people dying so bloody young..I mean 32-33 is like, the peak of your life,rather,you have just started living.....It is so not fair....

Okay,I should probably stop this now.. I just needed some catharsis..But this definitely is not helping...

I've been toooo lazy for words to write anything,rather do anything at all other than the most urgent things (like assignments etc etc lol).

Nothing much has been happening here btw. (Well,except the events am gonna list below lol lol).

The cold is slowly becoming unbearable,which is allright because I don't go out all that much except for class twice a week,tution class once a week and an occasional outing or shopping trip :D. There is rain to top which I actually like (that is, when I'm indoors ;)),but it is tooo much bother when you have to carry an umbrella and a polythene to put it and all that.

There was a bollywood party earlier this week, which was lousy because of the music and the delay in starting,but was nice because there were a lot of people I knew and we had a lot of fun :D.

We went on a day trip to Oxford, Stonehenge and Windsor yesterday. Windsor castle is the official home of the Queen (she just stays there for the weekend though, and she wasn't there yday neway..which was too bad since I was looking forward to having lunch with her lol lol ). The castle is huge..and very beautiful. We just got an hour there because of some confusion as to who had paid and who hadn't etc etc which is so not ample time to see it all. We actually missed out on the doll house which is supposed to be really nice because of this. too bad :(. Stone henge was sooo cold. That was one place I was soo looking forward to because of the obvious reasons (which are that I've seen loads of pics,heard lots about it,the astronomical implications etc etc). It was raining so heavily and very cold since it is an open place without any buildings to neutralise. But it was worth it, I went all around it in the rain,looking like an eskimo in my coat and hat lol lol. Oxford...hmmm..again,horribly cold and rainy. My parents when they had visited in September told me that it is warmer than London,but ofcourse it wasn't when I went there hmhm. We just roamed about, saw christ church, a few colleges (lincoln college,university college),did some window shopping and souvenir shopping etc. Apparently the University of Oxford doesn't have a main uni campus,it is spread all over the city and the weather didn't exactly allow us to walk that much..so...another time perhaps..hhmm..

And now..I have contracted the 'horriblest' ailment in the world "common cold". I am in a bad mood, and have to write a report of 3000 words for thursday :(((

We went to this not-so-happening party yesterday..hm..no ,the day before yesterday (coz its abt 6 am here on 24th oct) around here. It was mainly full of undergrads,so we, the 'older' and wiser postgraduates were still deliberating whether or not to go in till 1050 pm (the entry closes at 11).Then we were like wtf,we came to have fun,lets just bloody have it. It was sort of fun. We danced like mad all night,they played even punjabi song. Some not-so-sober people tried to spoil it for us,but anyway we sorta stuck together and had our share. The strange thing was that the guys who were drunk were acting stone sober and the one guy who was sober was acting like a saala sharabi lol. He was singing pyar mein pagal type old hindi songs all the way back (at 2 am and in London lol).

Today's party plan turned out to be a fiasco..Three of us had gone,two of us (including me) didnt have an age proof,so we weren't allowed in. Unfortunately our college ID doesn't show our DOB. Sad,na..we just came back after strolling through Central London. I had gone with my hair done and all that,that's a highly unusual occurrence lol.

Then...my best friend is coming to visit me tomorrow...I will be seeing her after 2 years...am soooo excited that I can't sleep....:D

Belated Happy Diwali...!!!

We went to this Swaminarayan temple at Neasden yesterday. The temple is pretty and all that,people who actually know about it said that it is like the one in Akshardham . Then I was like..Oh..I know that one,some terrorist attck happened there,right??? Everyone was looking at me like I am the ultimate Gawar lol. That is how pious I am..and seriously, I don't get the concept of the ultimate God and all other deities being his incarnations and all that. I mean,it is okay for the people who actually believe in all that,but just don't try to convince me!!! Well,there were fireworks too,they were pretty much ok-ok type,nothing to write home about. the whole thing was fun just because we went in a big group and all of us are like regular,fun-loving people.

This friday night, I got really really drunk for the first time ever..It was sort of a Friday night party. The guys had bought wine and gin and beer.( I don't like the taste of beer so I don't look that way twice). I had wine....and lots of it,like 7 glasses (:D) and 3 glasses of Gin. Well,the bottomline is, I have decided not to mix and drink ever again. I didn't puke or anything,but was in such a bad condition that my friends had to take me to my room,I couldn't walk at all. Actually everyone was pretty drunk so it was more like the case of the blind leading the deaf lol.

Well,I didn't get much of a hangover either. I got up at like 10 and I was fine,only I wasn't able to eat anything for a longgg time even though I was starving!!!

Doodling....Doodling....Doodling........
Attention drifts...(not having stayed in the lecture even for 5 mins)..Mind goes back and forth...back and forth...And also..in all directions (lol)

This is what happens to me in Research methods lecture. The Professor is quite good. He is funny,friendly,and would've been pretty great in any other topic.He's totally wasted on this though.It is such a horrible,super-dry topic.

We had to hand in some research report today (which is the only reason I went there,since he had made clear in the first lecture itself that attendance was strictly voluntary ),on some journal we'd supposedly read during the week. I finished it yesterday. I really can't work without a deadline to my head,I'm so bloody lazy.

This weekend is dedicated to Diwali. I guess we are going to some temple someplace,like 3 hours or so journey from here. I might wear a saree (which is highly unlikely,but I might give in to peer pressure. Honestly I can't travel in that,definitely not in this cold). Fireworks at night and all that. Should be fun,with such a lot of people.

My weekend starts tonight. Thursday is my favorite day of the week now,lol.

I have 1 more hour of this lecture to endure...sigh....deep breathing...snore... :D

P.S: I wrote this in the lecture and am publishing it at 330 am lol..

Another week begins...sigh!!!!

My week begins on Tuesday because that is the day when my classes start. Btw I have classes only 2 days,Tue and Thurs,that too in the evening :). Too good,na?? Ideal mahoul to get lazy lol,not that I need any reason for that.

So my weekend is extra long,it starts on Thursday night and lasts till Monday evening. I reserve Tue morning for looking through my notes and stuff so I don't look totally lost during my lecture ;). Wednesday evening I sorta give private tuition for a GCSE kid,yes me,the teacher lol ;).

I did some shopping this weekend. Bought a camel coloured leather jacket which is amaaaaazing-looking ( I can't say anything about the quality since I bought it from Primark,sort of a British Big Bazaar,but it looks truly awesome). My friend saw it first and had set her heart on it,but I took it ;)..I sort of had a black one already and it looked sooo smart that I had to take it...kinda broke her heart..(well,I was open to us walking about,looking like twins wearing the same jacket,only she wasn't too keen about it. She prob gave in coz I am lak really young to her). And I bought another great pair of boots with a tiny teeny heel...Black this time..am gonna start breaking it in today..That means sore foot and salt water dip in the evening lol.

On an average I see 2 movies per day nowadays. Am sort of becoming useless owing to the weird timings of classes,and insomniac too. I can't sleep till 4 or so in the morning and I get up at something like 9. The air of London is sure tampering with my biological clock!!!!

PS: Did I mention,we have a really cool group in the student housing...:D

Note: This is born out of my boredom. You don't have to read this.

1) My parents left this saturday..That feels good and bad at once...I feel a li'l alone,but its okayy,not too bad..

2) There was this Diwali party at Trafalgar square gone sunday. I went with friends from the student housing.Lots of Indians here. It was funnn.. We did Garba n all..:D.N I rode the bus in London for the first time. Well,I hate buses as a rule,so hopefully won't need to use them from now on..lol

3)I miss Paulettan quite a bit...I remember how excited he was when I told that I'd gotten through here. I hate not being able to fill him in of all that has beeen going on around here. I miss his silly jokes, his booming laugh and more than everything else,the warmth of his presence...I believe he is watching over me from wherever he is...

4)I'm mostly suffering from a constant lethargy over here. Don't feel like doing anything besides sleeping n watching movies. Maybe it is the weather...maybe I'm just getting lazyy..(so what else is new..)..hope it doesn't last too long..