So.....

Anudr year is goin.....and ofcourse, a new one is cming in:-)

I don't have much in way of resolutions,coz I don't believe in taking(or keeping) resolutions. However,I have decided to do certain things in the new year.

1.Dump my boyfriend.He is getting way too much for me to handle...

2.Respect myself slightly more than I have done this past year.

3.Stop trying to talk to a certain friend of mine till he talks to me(Well,this one is impulsive and is subject to change).

In general,take no shit from anyone.

That's it,more or less. I'll have to see how much of these am really gonna carry out.

Frankly,this year hasn't been too great. Neither to me,nor to the 'global community' at large.

I have messed up my life big time with a lousy boyfriend,a monster project guide,and a cranky landlady. And ofcourse I still am staying away from home:-(. On the bright side,my studies are looking good and I've finally made up with my roommate:-).

Im really not gonna go into the details of how the global community suffered this year.I have got enough things to worry about already.

I'll just say bye to everyone who passed away this year,u knw,the final bye(I'll say hi to the newborns when the year starts, i dont think they'll be able to hear it yet).

So,bye bye 2008....

Since I don't drink,I'll toast u with my waterglass;-)))

To 2008.....

P.S: I am home for the New year after 2 whole years.I've made plans to roam around with friends the whole day,yaayee...!!

It has been a fortnight past that black wednesday which India would probably never forget. I wanted to write n say quite a lot about it. But everytime I started to, I just couldnt bring myself to do it. I was so possessed by anger and sadness and shame and many other things I couldn't fathom. I don't think I have gotten over it yet, I dunw if I ever would,I dunw if any of us ever would.

My mom called me up at 6.00 just like evryday. Generally I talk to her and go back to sleep. But that day there was this upsetting piece of news she gave me,which ruled out sleep altogether; not just that morning,but for almost a week afterwards.

We Indians are no strangers to bomb blasts and the like. But they are all over in a jiffy and what we get to knw are very impersonal statistics. But this feeling of utter helplessness,of just being able to stand by and watch this misery,was something new,and all the more disgruntling. I knew I was as safe as could be in Pune,but my heart was bleeding for all those dear,familiar places,for that busy,bustling city I love so much.

A lot has been said about what all the government could have done to avoid this attack,about their impassiveness,about the poor people who died,about the heroes who laid down their lives....
I don't wanna go into all that. The one gud thing that came out of all the devastatin,accordin to me is that,it brought out the unity in diversity for which India is very famous. All communities and ppl are coming out to support the victims,against the govt,and generally,against the heinous concept of terrorism.

The Pakistani media has been an expressing a really stupid wish of theirs,that India would perish if it keeps pointing a finger at Pakistan. Thats what the terrorists want too ,I guess. They have been trying for 61 yers.But they havent suceeded till now. N they never will. As long as we have people like Hemant Karkare,Ashok Kamthe,Vijay Salaskar,Sandeep Unnikrishnan etc who give up their todays so that v can hav a better tomorrow,they will never b granted their wish. They might encroach to our territory,enrage our hospitality and kill our compatriots,but they will never terrorize us. We won't let them to.

I made a mistake;

I sent you away

When I realized it,

It was too late.

I tried to call you back

But the distance had widened so

That you couldn't come

Even if you wished.

Across the distance,

Swimming against all odds

When you did come to me,

I did the unforgivable;

I turned you away.

I made two mistakes

Both of which cost me you,

But I have no regrets

Maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

My eyes will watch you forever

My ears will be cocked for your footsteps

My soul will yearn for

You and you only

I'll be yours

For as long as I live.

I've lost measure

Of how much I love you,

I have loved you,or how much

I will love you...

Still I can't tell you that

I LOVE YOU.