I wish I could love you enough,

To let you go,

I wish I could love you enough

To be happy,when you are.

But what to do,

Its this heart which doesn't listen

Its this heart which just

Cannot go on beating

Without your love,

Its this heart which makes me

Hunt up ridiculous excuses

Just to hear your voice

Just to see that smile.

I try, and try and try

To curb its spirit

To stop myself doing things

Which would hurt a lot more,later,

Things, like loving you.

Needless to say,I never win,

I never win that particular battle,

To make my heart stop loving you,

For you are what you are;

Beyond description.

I've heard that

There's nothing like love

That heals all ills

But now I know that

There's nothing like love

That hurts you bad.

Time doesn't heal this pain,

It just gets worse and worse

Till you wish,

You could just bleed and die of it.

My world is not colorful...

Its just got black and white,

And bleak gray stripes...

For colors reflect happiness

And I'm definitely not happy.

Happiness can't be found in loneliness,

For I'm lonely;

I wish I were a shadow,

For then, I'd have someone to follow.

Flowers don't bloom for me anymore,

Birds don't chirp their heads away,

Rain is no more romantic

And dawn is more like a burden.

This is not a life I cherish,

Not one I'd want for anyone;

Never for a dear friend,

Not even for my worst foe.